What is the reason to live if you're HIV+?

I know how you feel because I'm HIV+ and its not easy to go through.For me,I engaged in some very,very risky situations with female sex workers in NY,at the end I ended up with it.My mind became flooded with suicidal thoughts and I basically have no friends,so their is no support system for me to carry on with life.To be honest with you,prayer is the key to a successful life and if you pray,things will work out for you.I lost my chances at getting married or being a father because of my selfish and stupid act and now I'm facing the consequences with God and my family,you still have hope and you can fulfill your dreams if you try harder,as for me my life is already over because I have no financial means to purchase or acquire the antiretroviral medications or therapy to extend my life,but you do.Live life,enjoy life and pray to God to give you friends that will understand your plight,fear and frustration and maybe someday your mind will be at ease.